Have you ever tried really hard to control some or every aspect of your life only for it to blow up in your face?  Ultimately, did you feel you weren’t in control at all?  You realized you aren’t in control because you aren’t.  God is in control of your life, even if you don’t believe it.  The more you to try to exert control over your life, the more it will spin out of your control.  What if being in control is just an illusion?